yeah, i was in the shit

foldback:

Led Zeppelin - “The Rain Song”

It’s been a weird/fun/fulfilling/awful/horrifying/important year. I’ve had major, major life changes, and worked through them. I have a pretty good life.

Yesterday, and today, I was reminded of what caused all that, and I realized that I’ll never be too far from it. It’s a part of my history. I’ve moved on, forgiven, all that, but forgetting isn’t an option.

When that happens, I fall back on what’s familiar and what’s safe. I look at baseball cards I collected as a kid. I watch cartoons. I flip through my records. I go for long walks. I go back beaches and bridges, places where I created happy memories. I go back to high school, when all I wanted to do was listen to Led Zeppelin, scribble in a notebook and make friends.

Through it all, I go back to the things that make absolute sense. Things that only hurt when they’re supposed to.

such love for this song, and the memories i have of it